Bravest thing

I was scared of dogs!!! Even though they are adorable!!

Right from my childhood I was scared. If I see a dog at the street end, I would had been running away from the other end.

My friends used to tease me for my fear of dogs.

I used to build a human castle with friends when I found a dog on street.

I stopped going to houses, which have dogs!!

On a fine day, I decided to break my fear.

I went to one of my neighbor’s house, who have a pet dog, started to spend time with them. During that time, dog came near me, smelled, tried to touch me and I tried to touch her.

My neighbor is a sweet lady, encouraged me to get friendly with her dog and controlled her dog.

After 1 week

I became friendly ( rather I should say Dog became friendly with me) with dog, almost loved it. I liked the way she expressed her love. I liked the way she greeted me, the way she missed me.

I was surprised how pebbles ( dog) changed my perception. I missed her daily greetings, when she went for a tour.

Even we both posed for photos, the bravest thing I have ever done.

Best advice!!!

Once my dad was pressurised in his office to sign a file. He was a government employee. He rejected it directly, but his boss and boss's boss already took bribe and forced my father to sign the particular file.
My dad rejected the file as it was out of norms. The whole office were against my dad, forced him to sign the file.

At dinner, we discussed the situation.I asked my dad, why didn't you sign the file when you are so much pressurised? My dad answered,  "Remember my words!! Dont leave your morals for anything or anyone else. It may be fear (of losing something) or desire (of having something) never ever leave your morals!! You do your duty perfectly, rest will be good. I'm in a responsible public service post, I don't care what the boss says. I was bothered only the file is as per norms or not. Even when you got pressure from your peers or boss, you stick to your duty. No one can threaten you."

I couldn't forget that words!!

P.S: My father stood stubborn, he got ready for transfers. This prolonged up to 3weeks, suddenly, the district collector came to this scene and stood beside my father and encouraged not to sign the file. The problem ended peacefully.

Early Valentine

All our apartment ladies meet at ground stairs, just for evening talks.

Yesterday, one of our resident’s daughter came with some gift packs in her hand and waved at us.

“Hi Ms.B, school over?”, I called her.

“Yes aunty, went for gift shopping” , she replied.( Its sucks when some one calls you aunty in your late 20’s. By the way she is 11–12 years old)

“Is your sister’s birthday coming?”, other lady asked her. I am recollecting her sister’s birthday.

“No, one of our classmate proposed me few days back, tomorrow is valentines day, so I'm going to give him a gift and going on a date”, she replied casually.

We were like

“WHAT??!!”

SHE IS 11 YEARS OLD. TALKING ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS AND DATING?

She bought some valentines day card, a dark chocolate, and heart shaped Key chain and other stuff.

She used more words like baby, my -ex, crush, insta-feed, late night messages in her conversation.

I couldn't digest what she said.

What is she saying to her younger sister?

Get into relation as soon as you hit 10 years.

For every Feb14, buy something in heart shape or chocolates and gift it to somebody. But make sure you get something in return.

I don't think her parents accept this kind of freedom at this age.

What if her relation crosses the line?

If the other person takes advantage, what will happen to her life?

She is immature to understand the upcoming consequences. It may or maynot happen but there is nothing wrong in being cautious.

I was really shocked at her attitude.

Next 10 minutes I told her to concentrate on her studies and skills. These relationships can wait.

She may think that I’m nagging, but at some ponit of time she may remember my words.

Worst thing a friend did

Its not worst thing,but kind of I didn't liked it.

Every Saturday our college used to conduct slip test for that week’s syllabus. Those are not the marks that are added to the final score,just to know the performance of the student and make them study every week.

My friend used to ask me answers every time during examination. As it is slip test the invisilation was less. I don't know whether she studied or not, but she used to ask me the answers.

I strictly didn't liked this.

It may be slip test.

It may not have any significance.

It may be for 20 marks.

But it was for your performance.

Those marks were for your knowledge that you put on the paper for 1.30 hours.

Why should I sell those marks for free??

Even if I get 0 marks it was my knowledge parameter, not only for teachers but also for me.

It is Robbery.

Just for the sake of Marks, and to boast infront of teachers, she tried robbing my skills. Moreover she is not exhibiting her knowledge.

I completely hated this.

For the first time...

1.10am Operation theatre

“Its a girl”, said my Pinni(Aunty)

“Where’s the baby”, I asked her in sleepy tone as I was under Anesthesia, on a strecher from operation theatre to my ward.

“Baby is taken to the doctor,for some initial vaccines and checkup, she will come soon”, pinni said in a happy tone.

1.50am In my ward

Can hear some voices, after couple of minutes I could recognize those are voices of amma(mom),pinni and my sister. But not my baby's cry. I asked them where is my child,they replied baby will be here by morning. I wanted to ask why but dizziness and anesthesia took over.I slept.

7.30am Still on my bed,listening few more voices(recognised they are my inlaws)

I opened my eyes forcefully, called “ amma, where is baby?”, she replied baby will be in incubator for 2 days, my dad is there with baby, and not to worry about anything. I smiled at my in-laws, said I'm fine. I slept.

8.30 am Few sound waves stuck to my ears

Somebody sitting beside me making phone calls to convey the message that they are blessed with a grand daughter, but she is bluebaby. Due to weakness and tranquilizers I could hear, but couldnt respond. Suddenly I listend to these words, I brushed off the dizziness for few minutes called my mom asked about baby.She said “Baby got brucies in the womb, due to lack of place. She will be fine, they are only birth marks which will be vanished with in few days. As she is in incubator,there absolutly nothing to worry about baby”. I repetatedly asked( rather use the word interrogated) mom,dad,pinni and sister. They all said baby is fine.

But at the moment I heard my baby was blue baby, I chanted name of God infinite number of times, new mother in me cried like hell. Thank God no one noticed my tears!!

After 4 days, 10.15am I sat up on my bed, waiting for my baby to come from incubator to my ward.

Those are the longest 10 minutes in my life. When my mother in law brought baby inside the room, I couldn't express joy without tears. I cried out of joy when I took her in hands. Those time little feet, tiny nose, her sleepy eyes, as soon as I took her in my hands she slowly opened her eyes, saw me and soon fallen asleep. I Thanked God million number of times.

I wondered how this tiny little creature was in my womb for 9 months. I felt proud, happy, grateful at the same time. It was priceless.

I never know how my mother felt when I was born, but now my love for her,  became double for what she bore for me.

Motherhood

After my graduation, one of my friend asked me what I shall do in 10 years.
I said I may have kids.
Friend asked desperatly "Is that all you want??"
I had no reason at that time to say.

After 7 years, I had my first baby. The moment I hold her in my arms, I cried out of joy.. It was priceless..

Every sleep less night, increased my patience..
Every reason less cry, increased my focus..
Every sound she made, increased my listening skills..
Every smile seemed to be most valuable gift..
Every milestone she reached, made me proud..
Every hug she gave me, increased my belief in love..
Every eye contact she made with me, made the world look more beautiful..

Now I can tell you the answer my friend. Being a mother is more than being a manager to company or designing a new Semi conductor device or being a software engineer. It's beyond that..

Not everyone can get this opportunity (definetly not for males of course). Motherhood is very precious. Every moment here is priceless..Not everyone can enjoy this in their busy career goals, but I did. Thank God..!!!

Ma tujhe salam...

You are The 1st lady i know from childhood...eventhough there is lot of age difference between u and me u played all the weird games what i designed, helped me in homework...u r my best frnd with whom i shared my secrets..u know my crushes... know who is my best friend...do know how i will react to any situation.. know when i will be hungry ..know every detail of my mind..
U was there when iam going through my hard times..shared my joy and made it double..shared my hatred and reduced to half...made me learnt how to be strong and patient..
U never said NO to what i said...supported me like hell...
When i look back into my life i find u in every inch&iam very happy for it ...
From tomorrow I am going to startmy new life..I am going to miss u terribly...You gave everything to me... I should thank you every second in my life..bcoz its was u,who gave me birth...I could not return anything except love.. I LOVE YOU AMMA...

PS: I couldnt resist myself saying I love you eventhough it represents tiny part of my love... :)

MoBiLe mAniA

Iam getting mobile maniac these days..
1st thing i see when I open my eyes is mobile phone for snoozing alarm..whwn I get bored..for games I use mobile..to avoid unintrested gossips at office..I use mobile...To convey "urs is boring speech" message to my boss I DEFINETLY use mobile..when I dont feel like facing some one..I speak on  mobile..When I want torch..use mobile..When Iam afraid that someone is watching me..I use mobile ... Even my hobbies are based on this..photography... blogging..mobile...reading..mobile..films..mobile...

And the most irritating moment is when someone lose their mobile.. :(

I dont deny mobile phone is dangerous..but when this have too many advantages like above why should I leave this??

The 1st thing I check my bag before leaving my house is mobile..I feel like I have everything I want if I have this...
My dear mobile phone..eventhough Iam angry with u when ur battry or balance is low..I love u...I cant live without u...Will u marry me?? ;-)

I love summer

I never deny beauty of any season...In God's creation every season is has its own unique beauty...But still i love summer..yes i do love summer..Despite of disadvantages like sweating,powercut and all it has its own advantages.
Here I want to quote some disadvantages of winter:
Main problem is Couldn't wake up in the morning...For Gods sake..Iam shivering..But my alaram doesnt allow me to sleep under soft warmth blanket...By this my day starts with irritating alaram snoozes..(negetive feelings)
Since my hostel doesnt have hot water facility..every morning Iam having ice bucket challenge before me... :(
I couldnt go for a walk early in the morning...I could easily catch cold...Cant watch sunrises too...
Too many diseases seek welcome board on us to attack in this season...
Moreover Day span is less..so i will be in hurry for completing day's work...
When I wash my clothes and trying to dry those,it takes toomany hrs to dry...(dear sun,please increase ur brightness)

The main problem which I was worrying abt is my skin is becoming dry evryhour..after "vasilene instant glow","vasilene total moisture" & "vasiline petroleum jelly" ,lyk by increasing moisture % in my body lotions..finally staying with coconut oil to save my skin from dryness..(cant help)

Still cold winter night is never letting me sleep peacefully...If we switch on the fan..we are shivering even under blanket..if it is off mosquitoes are having delicious dinner all night..
Neither "allout" nor "goodnight" is saving us...In this critical situation we found another chance called "mortien herbal coil"...
Few days we are thanking mortien company continuosly...but these bloddy devils got resistance for that too....
Of all these I hate wearing jacket in the cold morning and taking off,holding(it is like extra luggage apart from handbag and stuff) that in the evening...
Coming back to my statement "I love summer"...
I love mangoes in summer absolutly mouth watering... :p
Even I skip my lunch/dinner/breakfast for these...especially "Rasaalu" "kothapalli kobbari" type mangoes...
Summer is the time when everyone prepare "aavakai" at home...Andhra special...the one and only king in the menu..I would love to eat it...awwww...delicious...
Summer makes jasmines bloom...Yeah I agree there are lot of power cuts and heavy sweatings..but at that time our terrace become our sleeping place with all our family..cousins...We press rewind buttons in our life,memorising all childhood incidents under moon...

So my dear winter I cant bear you, even if u give hot chai on chilled morning...i want jasmines,huge day span,i want family get togethers,all of above i want mangoes...!!! i want my skin moisture back.....

For every woman

"There are things to do..

 And Dreams to see come true..

 There are fears to conquer..

 And places to go..

 I am women

 Each day I am living a Life

 A life that is only mine to live..

 There will be hurdles

 But there is always hope..

 There's nothing with which

 I cannot cope..

 I am not bound by obligation

 I am free to live my imagination"

Good book

Now I'm reading a book  named "P.S I love you" written by Cecelia Ahren..Its really a good book that anyone can read..Its a love story,eternal love story..The main character will not be alive at the begening of story,but he is the hero,Gerry..He was married to Holly,While enjoying their life,suddenly he come to know that he had cancer and he was left with only few more days..Holly doesnt know how the life would be without Gerry, she never imagined it,because Gerry was her life,she neither have any special intrests nor any hobbies but only Gerry&his memories..he too know this but he is helpless and to make her normal after he left he writes some letters to his best friend cum wife Holly,which makes her feel that he is around her after his death..Holly doesn't know he wrote 10 letters for her..
       After his death Holly feels suddenly empty in her life&leads depressed life,she'll lock up herself in her house only with Gerry's memories,when she come to know that there are letters for her,She will be almost on clouds,think that he is with her&run her fingers over Gerry's handwriting,knowing that the last person to have touched that page was him.Each letter gives some affectionate instructions that must be obeyed by her & ends with "P.S I love you"

          By his letters she come to know that he wanted her to go out,meet their best freinds,dress herself in beautiful outfit, go to a singing competation which is a nightmare to her..Holly does everything that he ordered but she doesnt understand why he wanted  her to do all these..Holly re read every word in the letter and tries to find out the intension of Gerry..Slowly she realised that her husband want her to be happy even after his death,because he knows how she would be after his death(depressed life,not meeting friends etc)

           In his fourth letter he orders her to takeaway all his things,clothes,books,whatever makes her to remember him,because he said that he will be there with Holly..its a very bad time for her removing all the memories of him..when she touched his favourite football,his sweater she used to cry& no single inch of intension to remove it,but afterall it is for her best friend cum loving husband,she felt that Gerry is somewhere there,looking her so doesnt want to upset him...I hope it is very hard & one should have courage to thorw off the memories of the person whom you love & knowing that they will never come back..everyone want to keep their memories so that atleast memories would be there for them...

           God,I almost cried after this chapter in the novel,I dont know till now one can cry after reading a book..before this I used to read only text books(Only for semester) not even I read this many story books in my childhood,but I came to know that READING GIVES YOU IMMENSE PLEASURE NOT ANYONE CAN EXPECT..(eventhough its makes you cry at times)..U know reading may change your attitude too..
So what I want say my friends is if you have free time read this "P.S I Love you"  book,I swear you it will be not a time waste thing and also suggest you to read "A Walk to remember" by Nicholes Sparks it is also a good story..

Interview ideas

Yesterday I went to a company at madapur to drop my resume.There are almost 400-500 candidates,and they are rushing towards that small gate..The gate was not opened.some people are there who already got in,and they are also waiting to enter into the office which is in 2nd floor..There is no queue system,no registration process nothing..Many candidates doesn't know even the designation they were offering..The situation is like as if we are in tirupati for darshan(Some people are making fun by crying out loud "Govinda govinda!!")..Even news channels,news papers will give the information about the time for darshan in tirupati..but here no one can say the time (it took 1hour for moving 1 meter). In the meanwhile rumours began to run all over there.One said there is a written test going inside(Untill then we dont have the information whats going in the office),other said they will take direct interviewes etc..
               Inthat time I came to know the advantages of being height..I'm not of that much height,but if I stand beside shorter people than me,I can easily take breath..So I moved beside to short lenght people :)There is no place to stand properly,in one situation I dont know whether I'm keeping my hand kerchief in my bag or others!!! Girl behind me is hurting my hair with her file and girl infront of me pushing me back..To overcome that irritation I began to think about funny things in films and in my college days!!! I saw a group of people who came from one place were playing jokes on one another and enjoying..I thought if I'm with my friends at that time I would have been enjoyed!!
Ok coming back to the comapany profile,after waiting 4 long long hours in that group(some people left in the middle) in which some people like me are not able to breath properly,we came to know that it is like consultancy,and have to be paid..Its a big disappointment for all of us..eventhough we gave our resumes..
                           Meanwhile I got an idea that why don't I start an information center at main centers like ameerpet,punjagutta,madhapur bus stops..To give information about the walkins on that day and the next day,whether it is consultancy or comapany,details of that walkin,whether it has bond or not,about the payement,route for that address and all other information about interviews,its not like consultancy but just information center.. Howz the idea??

One of my dreams

A Canon EOS 550D camera around my neck,traveling bag with me,a cap on my head,and a route map in my hands,taking pictures,waiting for a vehicle,eating road side food,asking way to my destination,meeting strangers,collecting information about the place,boating,trekking,traveling but not with my family or friends,me going alone to a historical place or a forest area or a hill station and enjoying myself at least for 10 days  is my unfulfilled wish!!!!!!!!!
Hope I'll make it possible  :) (To be frank, if it is possible I wanna go for treasure hunt...!!!   )